Where do I go from here?

First off, I’m clearly awful at keeping up with posting. From today on, there’s going to be at least one post a week.

So this week is the last of my 7 weeks off of school. You might be thinking “7 weeks? Why would you take 7 weeks off?” So here’s the thing. I am a college student, in my final semester at Mohawk College in Hamilton, Ontario studying television broadcasting and communications media. My program requires that you do an internship, which is great, there’s nothing better than getting the experience needed to further your career, sure most people don’t get paid for it, but hey, it’s something.

Internships can take place any time after your first two semesters, but traditionally people do theirs during the final semester. I say traditionally, because I didn’t do that. During the summer between my second and third year, I was hired by the college as a newsroom assistant, where I actually did very little in the way of news, instead I was responsible for helping teach summer students how to edit, how to use gear and I also shot a bunch of how-to videos for the available equipment.

Mid-way through the summer, I was told by our program coordinator that I could use the job AS my internship. So not only would I have it out of the way, I would also get paid for it. I loved doing my job and going to work was NEVER something I dreaded, which was strange because every other job that I have had in the past, I hated going to. In fact, there was one job that before going in for the day I’d just cry in my car because it was just awful. I won’t tell you where it was, but just know that I was a cashier.

So back on track, I know I kind of went off topic there. In December I had knee surgery, and when it came time to pick my classes for my final semester, my options were, for the first 7 weeks, be in class and then the second 7 weeks, be doing an internship, or in my case be out in the real world. The other option was the opposite, 7 weeks of internship and then 7 weeks of classes. Initially I had planned to do the first 7 weeks of classes and then just find a job, however because of my knee surgery, I wasn’t cleared to drive and so I chose to use the first 7 weeks as my recovery time.

I will be back in school very shortly and then will have just over a month before I’m done for good. This absolutely terrifies me! Why? Because I have no idea where to go from here. All my experience in the film and television industry, are in school. I don’t even know where to start. I want nothing more than to be a PA, whether it’s on set or in an office, but I have no clue how to get there. I know I could volunteer, which is great, and I want to, but I also need to work and be paid for it.

I’m also terrified because back in 2014 I graduated from university with a degree in film studies, and I could not get hired for anything in the field. So really, I’m just scared that I’ve spent all this time, all this money on something that I love doing, and won’t be able to do the jobs I’m trained for. I’m sure I’m not the only one in this situation, there are thousands of students who will graduate this year and think “What now?”

So, I begin my search for jobs early, hoping someone will see my potential. If you’re in the same situation, I wish you the best of luck. I believe in you, so you should believe in yourself.